The days have been getting hotter and hotter with the humidity climbing. I truly dislike summer and I still don't know if I truly hate it or if I just hate the summers here in KC. I love warmth and sunbeams, don't get me wrong, but my inner winter always craves snow and long sweaters. Winter has a way of bringing people closer together and I feel like that fades during the warmer months. The cold days bring about this need for comfort and warm drinks. I ache for that. While being cold natured, I do complain about the cold more than I should, but I enjoy nothing more than bundling up and hiding in a nest of blankets. The heat makes me feel so fatigued and out of place. I've read up on Ayurvedic doshas, but I'm not a Pitta type who are sensitive to heat. So, I'm at a loss. I know that most people tend to feel this during hot weather, but I feel like it affects me more than it should. I crave dawn and dusk. The way you can sit in sunny patches surrounded by cool shade. I tend to love moonlight as well during the warmer months. It's like a reward for a blistering day, being drenched in healing moonbeams.
I am falling more and more in love with my yoga practice each day. It's been almost a year since I officially delved into the yoga world and my goodness I have come such a long way. It all started about as a Groupon to the studio that has become a second home for me now. I could do basic warrior poses and now, as of a few days ago, can nail my tripod headstand. Yes, I can stand on my head, guys. That is a BIG deal for me. Before yoga, I did not have much upper body strength. I am not blaming ballet for my lack of muscles in my arms, but rather it worked different muscles and in different ways. Yoga has given me a strength I can't put into words. I feel the healthiest I have been my entire life. While I still have physical problems due to my ED such as heart issues, irregular periods or lack of one, night sweats etc, my body feels pretty dang good.
I am trying very hard not to let my perfectionistic ways get in the way of my practice. I tend to get hard on myself when I can't make it to a class or can't do a certain pose. I feel lazy and that results to me feeling "fat" and then regretting every ounce of food I put in my body. It's strange, but that is how my mind works. Fantastic, isn't it? However, after a talk with one of my yoga teachers, I was reminded that even if we all did the same pose, we would all look different. So, who is correct or what is the right way? Also, if we could all achieve all the asanas and inversions, where would the learning go? Yoga would cease to grow. The beauty of yoga is that you never stop learning even my teachers are still learning each and every day in their own individual practice. Yoga is a never ending story of vibrancy and strength. One day I will nail side crow, but for now, I will brag about my tripod headstand.
I feel like I could write forever, but I think this is all I want to put out today. In regards to meals and such, I feel like I pick safe foods and meals and would love to branch out. I can't do kale salads and oatmeal everyday. Nutrition is about balance, not deprivation. I would love some recipes or ideas to try! I would love to get inspired and pushed out of my comfort zone! If anyone wants to send me recipes and such you can reach me via email at teelem17@gmail.com or comment below!
As always,
Namaste.
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